Decluttering my makeup

Today, I got up and I cleaned my makeup section. This time last year I would have been expanding my makeup section as I have been for the past 8 years. Probably in August 2017, I gave up makeup, I just didn’t care for it anymore. It’s hard for me to look in the mirror in general, to put on “my face”, I just give people what they get, my natural face. I have given up on makeup. It’s not me.

I tossed most of my makeup. I kept mascara, blush, and foundation. Originally, I kept more. I literally stopped writing mid-post when I started writing out what I kept. I got up, went to my makeup drawer and threw out more than half of what I left. I don’t know why I kept so much more than what I truly needed. I kept the basics in case I want to wear makeup (occasionally it happens) and tossed the rest.

Here are a few tips to help others to go through their beauty section:

  1. If it isn’t your shade, get rid of it
  2. Crappy make-up, if you hate the lipstick you are wearing because it always smears, get rid of it. I bet you can find almost the same color that doesn’t smear and you will enjoy your make up a lot more.
  3. Be realistic, how often do you use a smoky eye set? Once every 6 months is not worth having a whole palette of eyeshadows you maybe use twice a year.
  4. Ask yourself, would I buy this today? Is this still something I would want or am I keeping this because I feel guilty for trashing it.
  5. Realize expiration dates! It is recommended to change out your mascara every 6 months.

Here is a table for the average life for a makeup product

Powders – around 2 years

Foundations – 6-12 months

Creams – 12-18 months

Concealer – 6-12 months

Pencils – 12 months

Mascara – 3-6 months

Lipsticks – 12-18 months

I hope this can help some people. May your decluttering goals be attainable and in reach!






I wish I could explain the anxiety and restlessness I have right now.

I feel pins and needles all over my body. I want to calm down, I wish I could. I am too restless though, my legs cannot stop moving, a part of me needs to move. I feel like I drank 10 cups of coffee and on the brink of an anxiety attack. I have anxiety sitting down, anxiety standing up, I even have anxiety to go to the bathroom, I have anxiety writing these posts. It NEVER ends.

I wish I could explain some more…


Today, I told myself I cannot do anything. I woke up exhausted, sluggish and just feeling empty. Depression hurts, it hurts when I try to do simple things and still can’t. I felt worthless, not even worthy of doing anything. From not doing anything on my day off, I feel overwhelmed with missed opportunities. I have all this time to actually do something fun and yet, I am here on my couch mindlessly playing video games.

From my posts mentioning depression, I don’t want some pity party. I’m making these for me, maybe some people relate, maybe not. It hurts myself not being able to do simple tasks because I beat myself up about and lower my self-esteem. People without depression just say “well just get off your lazy ass and do it” ah yes! I haven’t thought of that; thanks for enlightening me! Thanks for reminding me that I am a lazy ass, thank you for not understanding what I go through daily.

I wish people could understand how I would like to be functional, free of my mind and all its demons within. I wish I could show people, breaking down and crying after doing the dishes shouldn’t happen, but it does to me. Hopefully, by cleaning my house it can get easier. I just can only hope.